Online Diary: Old Online Friends

(Update: I have already revealed their names, and instead of changing how I wrote this post I just want to tell you now that Dancer= Cami and Pro= Sam.)


Hello future me!

I'm going to write about something I've been dealing with and have been trying to sort out- but before I get started, I'd like to give you some back story on these people I'm going to be talking about.

I play/played a video game called MineCraft, and on that game I made these two VERY special friends. Lets call them Dancer(Girl) and Pro(Boy). All 3 of us formed a friendship that no one besides ourselves could break. We LOVED each other. We not only spoke on MineCraft, but we Skyped EVERY SINGLE DAY, and sometimes, we would do both at the same time! (Obliviously annoying anyone who wasn't in our Skype call!)

Long story short, things got rocky in our friendship, and then they were okay again. But then things got rocky again, and we resolved that too.

But then things got rocky... AGAIN... and I left them. They lied to me so many times, and I just couldn't take it anymore. So I did what I assume most people would do, and I left.

Here I am now wishing I hadn't left them. I've taken about a 4 month break and I want to become in contact with them again.

Although I SWORE to myself I'd never look at them or their username again, I'm sitting here in just complete regret.

I let the bad parts of our relationship get in the way of something that was complete bliss. When I say we loved each other, I really mean it. These two kids over the internet mean and meant so much to me and now that we've gone away, I want them to come back.

Dancer was just a couple months older than me and personality wise, she was like the baby of our friendship group. She was really silly and random and she brings joy WHERE EVER she goes.

Pro was the only boy we had in our alliance. He was british, as a matter of fact, and was one of a group triplets. (I'm talking about his ACTUAL real life siblings.) He brought the immature/inappropriate jokes into our lives, and boy, how I miss his dumb humor.

You might be wondering what my progress is so far on finding them. I'm currently playing on the same MineCraft servers we use to play on, and have re-added them on Skype.

I have not spoken to them at least a little bit, but I have left little messages to them here and there.

Other people I know over MC have told me that they saw them just last week, and I'm super excited to see if I can log in at the right time and see them.

Have you guys ever had a close friendship over the internet? Do you have any suggestions for me on getting back with them? Am I even doing the right thing looking for them?

Books

Hello future me!

Todays post is on books.

I absolutely love books and have a MAJOR collection of them. As soon as I learned how to read, I never wanted to stop. I have spent countless nights awake until 4:00 am because I simply could not put my book down!

Some of my favorite kinds of book genres are: dystopian novels,  fan fictions, horror, romance, action and humor. But strangely enough, I very strongly dislike vampires and werewolves... Please tell me I'm not the only one!

Anyway- I put together a list of all the books I've recently read... (As in the ones I've read this year.)  However, these are in no any particular order. Here we go!:

-Freak the mighty by: Rodman Philbrick
-The cupcake queen by: Heather Hepler
-Divergent by: Veronica Roth
-Insurgent by: Veronica Roth
-Matched by: Ally Condie
-Crossed by: Ally Condie
-Reached by: Ally Condie
-Alex Rider: Storm Breaker by: Anthony Horowitz
-Alex Rider: Point Blank by: Anthony Horowitz
-Alex Rider: Skeleton Key by: Anthony Horowitz
-Alex Rider: Eagle Strike by:Anthony Horowitz
-Alex Rider: Scorpia by:Anthony Horowitz
-Alex Rider: Ark Angel by:Anthony Horowitz
-Alex Rider: Snake Head by:Anthony Horowitz
-Alex Rider: Crocodile Tears by:Anthony Horowitz
-Alex Rider: Scorpia Rising by:Anthony Horowitz
-The Giver by: Lois Lowry
-Hoot by: Carl Hiaasen
-Girl Online by: Zoe Sugg
-Uglies by: Scott Westerfeld
-After by: Anna Todd
-After 2 by: Anna Todd
-After 3 by: Anna Todd
- (Lets just say MANYYYY WattPad books, actually!)
-The Boy In the Striped Pajamas by: John Boyne

What is your favorite book? Which book have you read that you are most proud of? Have you written any books? Would you write any?

Online Diary: Bullies

Hello future me!

As you can tell, today's blog post is on bullies/bullying. 

Back in december of last year, me and this kid- Who's name I will not share... (Let's call him Chance, because out of all the kids I decided to mess with, I chose him.)- dated... or what ever you would call dating when it came to us and the school we were in. 

We didn't really speak like a normal couple would and it was just a bad relationship. (PS, sadly he was my FIRST boyfriend).  But then again, I go to a private school, and dating is against the rules. No, scratch that, touching people is against the rules! 

Anyway- so we dated and things ended really horribly, but as I've stated before, it was a bad relationship so I wasn't even upset.

Time went by and 'Chance' decided to get a little ruder to me.

I'm a very sassy and outspoken person, and if you give me a snarky comment or make fun of me, believe it or not, you'll receive one just as bad, and if not, worse. 

So things got a little heated between us- just kidding... VERY HEATED. 

He made sure every single day that I was made fun of, and my so called friends decided to go along with it.

He told me I was like his mother because I was bossy.

He also told my friends on a day I was out sick that I would never get a boyfriend because I was boring and my 'friends' totally laughed along with him!

The only reason I found out about that was because my closest friend till this day was eaves dropping and told me. Lets call her.... Bold, because just like me, she's super sassy! We grew up together (I've known her since Pre K) and our mothers are sisters by heart, just like we are. 

Anyway- back to Chance. He bullied me to the point that I didn't even stand up for myself anymore. 

He completely shattered my self esteem, Which I'm still trying to repair, and even affected the way I spoke to my FAMILY.

The very people I know will love me until I die!- The very people I'd kill myself for!

I used to be really spunky and silly around them, but now I'm wayyy too shy and quiet that I almost seem depressed- Which I am not. 

I use to cry myself to sleep quite often, and although I've been able to grow past that stage, I still don't have that silly confidence I use to have. 

I've tried everything I could to gain it back and nothing seems to work.

I try coming to level that I'm changed and I probably won't go back to the way I was before, but that still doesn't help.

I'm sick and tired of living this life and I so desperately NEED change! 

I'm tired of doing it on my own, and now that I've started a blog, I want you guys to help me out.

Leave some suggestions down below and I'll take all of them under consideration. 

Have you guys ever experienced bullying? Whether it happened to you, or to someone you know?

Where it begins

Hello everyone.

I am Annika Analytical, or GirlOnline. Whichever you like.

"Why the strange display names?" you might ask. Well, I want you guys to know me as that 'girl online' who is super relatable. I want to separate my real life and my online life. As for the explanation behind Annika Analytical, Annika is not my real name. I use it to remain in disguise, and I added 'Analytical' because not only does it sound catchy, but it describes me. I get awards at school for over thinking just about EVERYTHING.

You might recognize one of my display names (GirlOnline)- from Zoe Sugg's book. Yes, I did 'copy' her title, but that's only because that book is exactly what I'm going for. (Maybe without the whole recognition and publicity, though.) I want this blog to be, as Pen said, our little corner of the internet. Here, I want complete honesty.

I am a teenage girl who just wants to write and keep this blog as a documentary of all the things I'm facing right now.

I won't tell you much about my physical self, but I'll keep my emotional self unlimited to you.

Not saying I wont post pictures of maybe my whole body but my face, or maybe just my eyes or just my mouth, but I wont post a picture of my whole self all in one, to make it harder for anyone I know in real life to find me.

I started this blog because writing in a diary seems quite silly, really. My diary won't be able to reply to me and my hands always hurt after writing for too long. (Although if you DO enjoy writing in diaries, props to you!)

I enjoy long bike rides up and down the street. I like seeing new roads and its nice to hear the birds whistle at each other.

Speaking of animals, I have quite a large amount of pets. I won't be listing their names just in case someone from my school recognizes it, as I do ramble on about how much I adore my pets to them in real life.

My pets are very intimidating to people who don't know them like I do. They are quite large and tough looking animals, although anyone who sees them ends up taking a picture of them before they leave.

Now enough about myself, and more about what will be in this blog.

Here I will post what its like being me, and random experiences I go through.

I will rant about some of the horrible things us teenage girls are forced into by the "Have-A-Hard-Teenage-Life" gods.

And at the end of every blog post I will ask you guys a few questions relating to the topic.

Stay tuned, you all. Its going to be a long ride!